self-discipline woes
Feb. 26th, 2003 06:41 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
avadok. bit by bit. day by day, right?
Feeling guilty because I get thrown off by superficial things- like having my face all swollen this week.(allergic reaction)and I feel like I've been sleepwalking and utterly non-productive. Don't know what I can eat so I'm hardly eating and have to keep it totally bland and that's no fun- really alerts me to how much I've been addicted to food treats- these flavor 'pick-me-ups' thoughout my days. And coffee with creamer...agh, my love, the longing! But I have to flush my system out...this was a bad attack. It's just starting to go down. Can't wait to recognize myself in the mirror again. This has been quite eerie and depressing.
*sigh* but get PAST IT,girl! I've got to get back to work..I've been so slow, hardly in the studio.at this pace I can't really expect to make a living as an artist and I'll have to go get a job again.(NOOOO!) Self-discipline..tricky thing. You tend to think you're on some sort of vacation..
A woman from a gallery in Connecticut is making a studio visit here this Friday..(!!!). I think I'm ready but wish I had more to show..wish I could pour resin on the almost-done pieces so they would be striking and she could see how they will really look..but it's too cold. Resin pours must wait til Spring.
Feeling guilty because I get thrown off by superficial things- like having my face all swollen this week.(allergic reaction)and I feel like I've been sleepwalking and utterly non-productive. Don't know what I can eat so I'm hardly eating and have to keep it totally bland and that's no fun- really alerts me to how much I've been addicted to food treats- these flavor 'pick-me-ups' thoughout my days. And coffee with creamer...agh, my love, the longing! But I have to flush my system out...this was a bad attack. It's just starting to go down. Can't wait to recognize myself in the mirror again. This has been quite eerie and depressing.
*sigh* but get PAST IT,girl! I've got to get back to work..I've been so slow, hardly in the studio.at this pace I can't really expect to make a living as an artist and I'll have to go get a job again.(NOOOO!) Self-discipline..tricky thing. You tend to think you're on some sort of vacation..
A woman from a gallery in Connecticut is making a studio visit here this Friday..(!!!). I think I'm ready but wish I had more to show..wish I could pour resin on the almost-done pieces so they would be striking and she could see how they will really look..but it's too cold. Resin pours must wait til Spring.
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Date: 2003-02-26 04:22 pm (UTC)