trying to remember to breathe

[avad]

the period monsters have me. cheery and light has become stress and overwhelming. Juggling situational complexity exhausts. Job depresses. Anxiety about responsibilities, opportunities, debt, health, organization. On edge and the verge of tears over everything and nothing. The feeling of things closing in, trapping. The usual. Thank the lordy it's always temporary and I can recognize it as only one facet of an ever spinning gem. But. I'm in it. It's the record playing right now.
Feeling: run away. spend day (week, year!) under a tree listening to nature. fuck it all.
Logic: avoidance doesn't make deadlines go away, just opportunity. Opportunity for so many good things, things linked to self-realization and fulfillment of potential and purpose in life.
ergh.
But the air wafting through the open window is sweet with cut grass....and that's damn nice.
May I find a balance in this day. May we all. One gifted day at a time.
*sigh*
muchlove,
D

Comments

[adrienmundi]

Is it possible to do any of the necessary/productive work outside, if not actually under a tree? If so, I'd heartily recommend it.

[sendao.livejournal.com]

Ah, the delicious sight of dust and tree grit settling in the resin... ;)

I agree though that working outside is definitely wonderfully rewarding!

[avad.livejournal.com]

ha don't you know it.

well, I worked with the door open at least...twas purty nice. singing too. that helped.

[sendao.livejournal.com]

God I love avoidance! My family is hesitant to criticize me because in my youth I was very sensitive (and admittedly I still am when the words come from loved ones, but I still wish they'd go ahead) -- but they still sometimes tell me I'm too avoidant.

I've been thinking lately maybe a motivational speaker can help me to address those issues that I feel I have not personally managed to take care of yet. Standing on the shoulders, and all that. This guy in particular has tickled my tummy with some of his words: www.stevepavlina.com

[avad.livejournal.com]

thanks for the link- I'm browsing around it!

[anztac.livejournal.com]

You may enter Chapel Perilous at any time ;o)

I know exactly the feeling, so a big :: hug :: for you!

[avad.livejournal.com]

thank you muchly. needed that.:)

chapel Perilous???

[babayada.livejournal.com]

Hang in there.

*hugs*

[avad.livejournal.com]

thankyou baba. hugs back.:)

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Logic: avoidance doesn't make deadlines go away, just opportunity.

*Sigh* An apt piece of wisdom for my entire life.

Hugs,
Van