trying to remember to breathe

[avad]

the period monsters have me. cheery and light has become stress and overwhelming. Juggling situational complexity exhausts. Job depresses. Anxiety about responsibilities, opportunities, debt, health, organization. On edge and the verge of tears over everything and nothing. The feeling of things closing in, trapping. The usual. Thank the lordy it's always temporary and I can recognize it as only one facet of an ever spinning gem. But. I'm in it. It's the record playing right now.
Feeling: run away. spend day (week, year!) under a tree listening to nature. fuck it all.
Logic: avoidance doesn't make deadlines go away, just opportunity. Opportunity for so many good things, things linked to self-realization and fulfillment of potential and purpose in life.
ergh.
But the air wafting through the open window is sweet with cut grass....and that's damn nice.
May I find a balance in this day. May we all. One gifted day at a time.
*sigh*
muchlove,
D