oooh please let this work!

[avad]

I've been moping and dragging and miserable about getting a job. Hitting the streets with my resume and saying all the right things while practically begging with my eyes for them NOT to take me. Reluctant is too soft a word. But despite how swimmingly everything is going with my art career in the realm of exposure, I am now officially terrifyingly flat broke (no cash, nada, change only) and in massive debt. So something Must be done in the way of some regular income, no way around it. Still I avoided calling anyone back for a decision today...hoping for some strange sudden miracle or insight or at least a sense of YES I'll take this one, this is the best choice. Then just now, in the shower (I love showers- geez- thankyou shower!!) finally I got an idea. And I inspected this idea, working it through mentally.... turning it around and upside down and checking for holes...and it seems stunningly...possible! It's not a crazy idea, it's not an idea that will only happen with time...it's just a good regular possibility that I would be happy with. Oh I hope I hope!! I will look into it tomorrow morning and give it a chance. A glimmer of hope! An possible escape from feeling like I'm totally selling out! This I can do without being miserable!! Without having to turn into someone else! I could just be me! *fingers and toes crossed*

UPDATE: Nothing new to report yet except that I'm holding my breath and the suspense is KILLING MEEEEE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! I am supposed to call these other people(jobs I don't want but will have to take if this doesn't work) back...and I still don't know whether I can go through with my plan. I called one and bought some more time...but ACK!! Universe! Let me know!!pleeeeez!?
On another note, the hope alone has transformed me. I'm giddy and sparkling in spurts. So that's good. Chips in the funk where the light is shining through superbright!

Comments

[lorigami.livejournal.com]

*crosses everything*
I hope it works for you too.

[avad.livejournal.com]

thanks sweets

[captainbigwig.livejournal.com]

professional paper doll maker perhaps?

[avad.livejournal.com]

you're not far off...but that's another story. not the immediate paying sort

[captainbigwig.livejournal.com]

doll repair shop?

that would be cool and creepy with all those plastic heads bobbing about.\

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

I have been in the same boat for a long time. Best wishes to you. I especially hope you find something where you are happy.

[darkfader.livejournal.com]

I know your situation well. I have a few gems of advice if you are seeking a job.

1. Always talk to the people working at your perspective job and ask them if they like it. The answer might suprise you!

2. Whenever possible, make sure you hand your resume/application to whomever actually does the hiring, and mention your name. This works wonders. Another resume in the pile gets you nowhere.

3. Let it happen. This may seem obvious, but as you have noted, even when bills loom, and cash is gone, the tendancy is to stay on your current path. Be weightless to avoid inertia.

Hope you find somthing that suits you, or anything thay pays untill then.
Be Awesome!

[avad.livejournal.com]

thanks sweetie. i agree. I'm going for the 'anything that pays until then' one right now. have to. It'll be fine I just have to suck it up a bit. I was getting pretty spoiled with all my time....have to adjust. makes me appreciate my studio time more and all that...bleh;)

[rosylavie.livejournal.com]

Everything you touch turns to gold. With all the wonderful ideas you have, I'm sure you will find a way to make all the money you need. :)

[avad.livejournal.com]

thanks julie.:) I don't doubt the longterm dreams...just have to balance the now a bit better...just going to get something to pay my bills. needed

[rosylavie.livejournal.com]

Yes, I understand 100%: even while you're thinking about your golden projects, you're not paying your bread and butter with it yet. :o)

Happy New Year of the "Dog" (Chinese new year begins today)

[babayada.livejournal.com]

I wish you success in whatever this thing is.

[orangelo.livejournal.com]

I know the feeling.
I have been looking for a Job for ages ...
I don't seem to be having much luck
:(
but i wish u all the best ...

[avad.livejournal.com]

thanks. good luck to you too. here's to it being easier than we thought.

[fragiletender.livejournal.com]

I think all artists know that one - being skint but not wanting to give up studio time for some stupid boring job that you're not interested in. I certainly do!

I hope something comes up soon and that is' reasonably interesting and doesn't interfer with your real work too much.

[avad.livejournal.com]

ha yep. that's us.

I gave up on the reasonably interesting because all the stressing and energy of the search was interfering with my work bigtime already. so now I'm just going with 'work tomorrow. do what I need to. get paid. come home and continue with realwork as best as possible.'

[unluckymonkey.livejournal.com]

My many fingers and toes are crossed for you, hun! I KNOW where you are and what you're going through. Poverty and art really do seem to go hand in hand. But the LOVE is so great and fulfilling that it's hard to drag yourself away for something as useless and tawdry as money. I totally understand. Many big encouraging hugs!

[avad.livejournal.com]

commiserates.:) ha, yep it's me! (http://www.blackbos.co.uk/picasso_absinthe_drinker.jpg);)

[unluckymonkey.livejournal.com]

well I wouldn't mind knocking back a couple glasses of absinthe with you my dear. :) We'll be sunken and poor but deeply satisfied. Oh well, right?

[rosylavie.livejournal.com]

Holà avaD! If ever it's possible for you, I will be inworld tonight, starting around 8, to introduce Simulants (www.simulatrix.com) to Second Life. Maybe you'd like to join us?

Julie