AdverGaming
Jan. 18th, 2005 01:27 pm![[personal profile]](https://www.dreamwidth.org/img/silk/identity/user.png){kind=small}
avadI want to cry.
I knew it was coming. *sigh*
Dreamt this so many years ago...and the feeling of urgency...the questions/challenges...HOW do we use these evolving technologies and the surges of attention/energy for the GOOD of humanity, not just corporate greed?? The same technology has the power to totally change our economic system to symbiotically support areas of great need...developing countries...areas of suffering...The dream indicated that it would have to be emergent WITH the technology...the infrastructure would have to be PREDESIGNED to benefit the charitable organizations...and the launching of it would be immense, collaborative, exciting, heralding a new world possibility...of cooperation. Everyone wanting to be a part of it and to watch it grow.
And now almost 6 years later I've really done nothing (I didn't know HOW- it felt so beyond me!!) and I watch as it all happens...but with the bent we were hoping somehow to avert. the memes propogating here are 'go spend and support our corporate greed' instead of all the beautiful memes that could be reaching the masses.
"There has to be a vision...so compelling...that it thwarts the natural tendency to selfishness...rewiring the pleasure-centers of the brain to connect to benevolent action strongly...a new vision of the self...as part of a benevolent organism...."
And I made artwork with the visions. And I read. And I was inspired..linking, making common interest friends...but...
I never MOVED any of these ideas formally!. And they were shown to me as store and webportal, not painting and dinner chat.The 10% club remains a semisecret vow I've taken personally...instead of a MOVEMENT throught the business sector as it is 'supposed' to be...with cooperating businesses and a web portal to charities. Pier 10 would be a conglomerate of these businesses...in 3d immersive virtual worlds (gaming).
ugh. I feel sick. I don't know how to explain the haunting and heavy feeling of responsibility I feel for something that yes seems totally beyond me. I just want to cry. I don't know how to do this!!!!!!
I don't think I've been able to truly convey to even one person the Magnitude of what I feel relating to this...and I feel horrible and guilty and I dont' want to hear that I shouldn't I want someone to understand that there's something SO important that needs to be DONE!!!!!!!!It feels so late now. Impossible to catch up to the speed of things happening....I just don't know!
fcking sobbing crying my eyes out
sick of not being able to express
sick of myself and my avoidance and my laziness
years years years have gone by
I was made aware of our chance....and did nothing
because it seemed 'too hard, too complicated' to do
and much Much too social, collaborative.
Noooo...darlene wants to be alone and have her peace and quiet...
while everything poises on the shiftpoint
and people around the world suffer
and she's shown a diagram of how to help
a little piece of the puzzle
but it feels to difficult to express
and doesn't make lightning when she tries
so she lets it slide
deprioritized
Deprioritized?
how dare i
*screamsob*
I knew it was coming. *sigh*
Dreamt this so many years ago...and the feeling of urgency...the questions/challenges...HOW do we use these evolving technologies and the surges of attention/energy for the GOOD of humanity, not just corporate greed?? The same technology has the power to totally change our economic system to symbiotically support areas of great need...developing countries...areas of suffering...The dream indicated that it would have to be emergent WITH the technology...the infrastructure would have to be PREDESIGNED to benefit the charitable organizations...and the launching of it would be immense, collaborative, exciting, heralding a new world possibility...of cooperation. Everyone wanting to be a part of it and to watch it grow.
And now almost 6 years later I've really done nothing (I didn't know HOW- it felt so beyond me!!) and I watch as it all happens...but with the bent we were hoping somehow to avert. the memes propogating here are 'go spend and support our corporate greed' instead of all the beautiful memes that could be reaching the masses.
"There has to be a vision...so compelling...that it thwarts the natural tendency to selfishness...rewiring the pleasure-centers of the brain to connect to benevolent action strongly...a new vision of the self...as part of a benevolent organism...."
And I made artwork with the visions. And I read. And I was inspired..linking, making common interest friends...but...
I never MOVED any of these ideas formally!. And they were shown to me as store and webportal, not painting and dinner chat.The 10% club remains a semisecret vow I've taken personally...instead of a MOVEMENT throught the business sector as it is 'supposed' to be...with cooperating businesses and a web portal to charities. Pier 10 would be a conglomerate of these businesses...in 3d immersive virtual worlds (gaming).
ugh. I feel sick. I don't know how to explain the haunting and heavy feeling of responsibility I feel for something that yes seems totally beyond me. I just want to cry. I don't know how to do this!!!!!!
I don't think I've been able to truly convey to even one person the Magnitude of what I feel relating to this...and I feel horrible and guilty and I dont' want to hear that I shouldn't I want someone to understand that there's something SO important that needs to be DONE!!!!!!!!It feels so late now. Impossible to catch up to the speed of things happening....I just don't know!
fcking sobbing crying my eyes out
sick of not being able to express
sick of myself and my avoidance and my laziness
years years years have gone by
I was made aware of our chance....and did nothing
because it seemed 'too hard, too complicated' to do
and much Much too social, collaborative.
Noooo...darlene wants to be alone and have her peace and quiet...
while everything poises on the shiftpoint
and people around the world suffer
and she's shown a diagram of how to help
a little piece of the puzzle
but it feels to difficult to express
and doesn't make lightning when she tries
so she lets it slide
deprioritized
Deprioritized?
how dare i
*screamsob*
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Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-19 02:20 am (UTC)I'm open. (scared as always) but open.
talk to me
Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-19 07:07 pm (UTC)"In order to have it manifest...I would have to 'convince' others of its validity, to get people with the right skills to collaborate, etc. and that's something i'm not comfortable doing and I feel bad at.And I'm postponing indefinitely out of fear and my own desire to work quietly and alone and not have to EXPLAIN things that are hard to explain." ~
As Eye continue to read and be !nspired by your posts and elaborations of others, so many things, like your quote above, seem like they were typed straight from me, in describing my own thoughts and feelings about what seems like the same dream. Eye'm just so amazed and excited to find someone else who thinks and seems driven, as Eye, by the quest of the vision, even when it does seem too much to carry!
"A possibility is that you work on a term using what you know to be your strengths while others are using their strengths to complement your weaknesses ... it doesn't have to be a one woman crusade." ~
Agreed! As you have an obvious strength in presenting thoughts in type, Eye seem to be better, myself, in speech, while, much like yourself, using art as a catalyst for the message.
"We are not sep-arate but the same, Connected by Our differences." ~ JS : )
So what may bring Us to understand and act on Our great potential? Eye am currently working on a program to hopefully answer this perplexity; and, after reading your thoughts, feel that you must surely have a place in the making of its REALity.
"If you want to view paradise, Simply look around and view it, Anything you want to, do it, Want to change the world, There's nothing to it." "We are the music makers, and we are the dreamers of the dreams." ~ Willy Wonka
Seriously moved by you and your friends, who seem to understand and !nspire Empathy and Connection in ways that are, unfortunately, still so rare, this is probably more than Eye've typed in a single LJ comment ever!
"Your 10% club has inspired me to do what I can (proceeds from yarn stuff to heiffer and oxfam, etc...) remember that you are making the movement grow, really." ~
Agreed! Thank You for sharing your thoughts of Compassionate Connection with the world! Eye'm sure, in the Connecting paths of LIFE that lead Us to where We are and will eventually be, that you have !nspired far more than you will ever know! And Eye look forward to Communicating with you more~>
"Welcome cultural diversity and explore people of other races, colors, and creeds. Talk about and celebrate your differences. Study geography to learn about the world and its people and to promote environmental and global Connectedness. .. Everbody will suffer until We are one healing Family." ~ Patch "Gesundheit!" Adams
To explain my spEyelling, it's something learned from Eyenstein (Albert Einstein). If you want people to remember you, always wear the same suit. In reference to Eyeclectic, Eye've been wearing this suit for so long now that just wearing the letter "I" seems strange to me, like Eye'm not fully dressed. So here Eye am, respectfully, in three piece suit, and camera.
"Everything IS Everything, Be It!" ~ Positively, JS : )
Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-20 05:25 am (UTC)DO you know we actually met Patch Adams a few years ago?!! hee. He gave a lecture at the college nearby. What a character. Very inspiring.
Thanks for the explanation of the spelling...I WAS wondering but didn't ask! hehe.
I am very grateful for the friends I've made through this medium...especially when overwhelmed as I was yesterday...these noted made all the difference.
BTW I can't open large files on this computer (it's an old system on its last legs...but i'm hoping it can hold out till I can afford a new one)...
so I might be able to see what's on the disk and on the mp3 on another borrowed computer soon.
anyway, thanks for the empathetic words. I know we do have much in common in dreams and goals and visions for the future.
love
D
Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-20 04:37 pm (UTC)Not sure what you meant by "what's on the disk", but the mp3 is a presentation of the "Fame & Fortune (Are Not Siamese Twins)" theme of the "Empathy from the Empire" exhibit. If you can't open it, perhaps Eye could send you a CD, along with a print of "The Gift" photo you wanted?
: )
Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-20 06:34 pm (UTC)I think I Will be able to watch it on my fiance's computer...but he needs to install something first said he...But if for some reason we can't, I'll let you know..and I would love a cd (and of course the photo which is gorgeous).
Speaking of, DO go back and visit this post and see all the amazing notes left recently by seppuku files/aka Ed. You'll love this guy!!
wow.:)
Re: Everything IS Everything
Date: 2005-01-21 01:38 am (UTC)As for this post, "EUREKA!", Eye say!
: )