AdverGaming

[avad]

I want to cry.
I knew it was coming. *sigh*
Dreamt this so many years ago...and the feeling of urgency...the questions/challenges...HOW do we use these evolving technologies and the surges of attention/energy for the GOOD of humanity, not just corporate greed?? The same technology has the power to totally change our economic system to symbiotically support areas of great need...developing countries...areas of suffering...The dream indicated that it would have to be emergent WITH the technology...the infrastructure would have to be PREDESIGNED to benefit the charitable organizations...and the launching of it would be immense, collaborative, exciting, heralding a new world possibility...of cooperation. Everyone wanting to be a part of it and to watch it grow.

And now almost 6 years later I've really done nothing (I didn't know HOW- it felt so beyond me!!) and I watch as it all happens...but with the bent we were hoping somehow to avert. the memes propogating here are 'go spend and support our corporate greed' instead of all the beautiful memes that could be reaching the masses.
"There has to be a vision...so compelling...that it thwarts the natural tendency to selfishness...rewiring the pleasure-centers of the brain to connect to benevolent action strongly...a new vision of the self...as part of a benevolent organism...."
And I made artwork with the visions. And I read. And I was inspired..linking, making common interest friends...but...
I never MOVED any of these ideas formally!. And they were shown to me as store and webportal, not painting and dinner chat.The 10% club remains a semisecret vow I've taken personally...instead of a MOVEMENT throught the business sector as it is 'supposed' to be...with cooperating businesses and a web portal to charities. Pier 10 would be a conglomerate of these businesses...in 3d immersive virtual worlds (gaming).
ugh. I feel sick. I don't know how to explain the haunting and heavy feeling of responsibility I feel for something that yes seems totally beyond me. I just want to cry. I don't know how to do this!!!!!!
I don't think I've been able to truly convey to even one person the Magnitude of what I feel relating to this...and I feel horrible and guilty and I dont' want to hear that I shouldn't I want someone to understand that there's something SO important that needs to be DONE!!!!!!!!It feels so late now. Impossible to catch up to the speed of things happening....I just don't know!

fcking sobbing crying my eyes out
sick of not being able to express
sick of myself and my avoidance and my laziness
years years years have gone by
I was made aware of our chance....and did nothing
because it seemed 'too hard, too complicated' to do
and much Much too social, collaborative.
Noooo...darlene wants to be alone and have her peace and quiet...
while everything poises on the shiftpoint
and people around the world suffer
and she's shown a diagram of how to help
a little piece of the puzzle
but it feels to difficult to express
and doesn't make lightning when she tries
so she lets it slide
deprioritized
Deprioritized?
how dare i
*screamsob*

Comments

[unluckymonkey.livejournal.com]

I'll admit I can't even go to the link. I can't even look and know something more is out there to sell to people and program them. All I have to say really is that Nothing I Too Late. No matter what there is always a chance and maybe this is your call to attention to get out there and do and achieve your goal before it feels hopelessly gone and saps all your energy. Do it now if it hurts this much to see it go away. Easy enough for me to say of course but I feel you can do the It that will make you feel accomplished. Nothing's over and It can still be accomplished. You impress the hell out of me and you have the ability to be an inspiration to others. >many crushing hugs

[babayada.livejournal.com]

http://www.wilddivine.com

Video games simply are. They can be used for whatever purpose the producers want.

We all have ideas that we do not act upon for a variety of reasons. We all have our lives to live. Getting down on yourself is not cultivating the good in yourself and in the world that was in your original intention concerning this stuff, right?

Besides, you have your art. Do you know how many people want to create art but don't out of laziness, fear, and/or lack of ability?

Everything IS Everything

[eyeclectic.livejournal.com]

Eye totally understand these feelings, as it seems We share the same vision--so clear, yet so overwhelming! But this, Eye am sure, is the reason Eye was guided here! And though Eye continue to put it off, not knowing just what to say, reading this post makes me feel certain that We really need to talk~>

Positively,
JS : )

[sendao.livejournal.com]

Now that you've calmed down a bit, I have a lot to tell you.

First of all, don't just blame yourself, if you're going to blame someone. Blame me, too, for I have been lazy and have not moved forward much in this area either. We both do what we can, but there's nothing wrong with being human. We can only do what we can do. It's not laziness, it's ability and energy. We're not yet ready to do this. But don't worry! It will happen!

Second, it's not necessarily going to be exactly like your dream. Perhaps the manipulations you are meant to make are not in the form of this world we both want to make, but rather through your art and already -in- your art. What you have created for this world is already beautiful! You have helped to create beauty in the world, and have also helped to push back the darkness that threatens to invade.

Third, people may not yet be ready for the epiphany of caring for others. Many simply do not feel the pain and suffering of those who are far away - I know that it is not something I feel strongly, although I could not tell you why. Perhaps I am too wrapped up in my own life, but if you were to try to really push your ideas on me? I would balk and deny you! And I cannot explain this either, except that selfishness is self-protective.

Fourth, I'm not giving up on the dream just because some other people have already taken their own steps using this media. Are you unable to paint simply because there are other paintings out there? Remember that all we're talking about making is a way to talk to people, and to express the ideas we desire to them, hopefully with some positive reinforcement to guide them to feel the same way. (Donate $10 to charity to increase your player's chi power!)

This is still something we can do, hon. It is never too late, and yes people are hurting, but you can only do what you can do. People are hurting because we are all imperfect, not just you.

[vaneramos.livejournal.com]

Concentrate on what you can reasonably do today, or the task will always seem overwhelming. Gandhi said we have to be the change we want to see in the world. I believe it is wrought with small nudges and staying grounded in the present.

[rokkitz.livejournal.com]

it takes all sorts of folk
to make this boat float
every individual is a hero
timing is every thing
progress isn't something to aim for
evolution is unpredictable
maybe it's a case of
forgetting
so that you can
remember
what it's like to
slide across
the edge of empathy so
keen

yeah,
maybe it's a call
but don't think
you're not
a relay beacon

it's like tlon,
all over again
one encyclopedia page
at a time(?)

[lorigami.livejournal.com]

Your 10% club has inspired me to do what I can (proceeds from yarn stuff to heiffer and oxfam, etc...) remember that you are making the movement grow, really.
xoxo

"Luminous beings we are, not this crude matter."

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

"Don't be too proud of this technological terror you've constructed. The ability to destroy a planet is insignificant next to the power of the Force." -Darth Vader, in regards to the Death Star.

I had a conversation with a close friend of mine recently. We discussed the frustrations and the caricatured differences between the "goodguys" and "badguys."

"Sometimes I hate being the goodguys. Just once I'd like to be the badguys. The badguys get machineguns, and when they need to change something, they chop it directly up with loud rattles and flying lead. And all we, as the goodguys, have are daisies and good intientions. DAISIES! We can't do shit against machineguns, not with these daisies!"

The result of the conversation (directly, and after some marination) was that sometimes it seems like the good in the world is failing, because the bad in the world seems to make victories every day. But that is the way of the bad in the world. It takes the short and powerful route, winning as much as it can through a series of small skirmishes, all the while promoting a war campaign that is designed to shake the faith of those working on the good. "THIS IS THE WAY OF OUR WORLD. ALL MUST SUCCUMB OR BE DEFEATED IN OUR VICTORY MARCHES." Bullshit, suck my ass...

What needs to happen with the good, as I think is more true than we can believe (especially at the points where the carpet of hope is yanked out from beneath our feet), is that we need to steadily build, process and purify the good, find the cracks in it and replace, strengthen, condition, repair, and ultimately solidfy that which is good for that moment when all of the bad comes to our doorsteps, they will find that our houses are not made from straw, or sticks, or bricks and mortar, but something built from the same structure as the universe, something so strong it is un-shakeable to any force that is not equal to G-d.

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

And DAMN, do I fucking feel you when it comes to that sense of urgency. Too many times, I've lost patience with myself, feeling like I'm so far behind in my own personal evolution that I can't possibly be of any use to the world and the betterment of it, to the positive growth and evolution of humanity and society. I really do feel you, D. I feel these things every waking hour of every day of my life -no exaggeration. When I was about ten years old, my father told me "There's going to be a revolution in your lifetime, and YOU have to be the one to lead it. Our generation fucked up; our time is passed. It's all up to you." Those words wrapped themselves around my heart and mind, and I remember them all the time, and sometimes those words crushed the wind from my lungs with feelings of helplessness, feeling like the world is too big of a thing for me to move with my tiny little hands.

And it is. But it is not meant to be moved by my hands alone.

If we intend to get this ship to shore, and out of the dangers of watery graves, and storms that would rip it apart leaving no trace of how far we've come, EVERYBODY must row.

But how do we get them to row? By pointing machineguns in their faces and telling them that they "Have To"? Nah man, you know that it's up to folks like us, using our tools of articulation to explain the necessity of the rowing, using what gifts were given to us who CAN translate the intangible things into bite-sized morsels for those who can't see the invisible, and through our modelling of such things as intelligence, honor, respect, growth, evolution vs. stagnation, to convince those with oars (which really is everyone on the planet) to row, and row for shore! Steadily but surely, we will make it. Even if there are those who jump ship, even if there are those who cannot make it and die, those of us who have been rowing since the earliest days will -and DO- have the strength to row for more that our occupied seat, and we bolster that strength as well as gloify it to the others who are like us, especially in front of those who would doubt or question their own strength, or waver at the fear that "this boat may never make it to dry land."

WE ARE THE ONES THAT KEEP THIS THING ALIVE.

And we MUST remember lessons like that which is written by Yamamoto Tsunetomo, in the second chapter of the Hagakure:

It is said that what is called "the spirit of an age" is something to which one cannot return. That this spirit gradually dissipates is due to the world's coming to an end. In the same way, a single year does not have just spring or summer. A single day, too, is the same.
For this reason, although one would like to change today's world back to the spirit of one hundred years or more ago, it cannot be done. Thus it is important to make the best out of every generation. This is the mistake of people who are attached to past generations. They have no understanding of this point.
On the other hand, people who only know the disposition of the present day and dislike the ways of the past are too lax.

Be true to the thought of the moment and avoid distraction. Other than continuing to exert yourself, enter into nothing else, but go to the extent of living single thought by single thought.

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

A common thing that I have seen in people who involve themselves in martial arts is that they tend to focus on the very physical aspects of it; the practice of martial arts is not merely about who can punch, kick, and block effectively enough to prevent themselves from getting beat up, but that there are philosiphies at work that are designed not just for hand-to-hand combat, but that can (and should be) applied to the war that we are all born into -the war of balance and understanding between those who seek to bring harmony to the universe, and those who seek to bring some semblance of harmony to their own lives, even at the cost of the harmony of the universe, their world, or even the lives they affect in their own plane of existance. And conversely, there are lessons handed down from the masters that may not be getting to those who do not practice (or look into martial arts), that are very applicable today because the core structure of human struggle and contention has not changed so much that the philosiphies they practiced on how to overcome struggles and contentions are not as outdated as people would believe.

And yeah, it's true, we have to make the best out of every generation. And it has been proven time and time again, that when good is tested, it will rise to the occasion and survive the onslaught of terror, destruction, war, misguided intentions, hatred. Our hands are stronger than the hands of those who fear and rush to arrange themselves comfortably in this world, at the cost of the world. They are stronger because they have withstood years and years -fuck, GENERATIONS and GENERATIONS- of being subject to the negative aspects of humanity and still, we use these hands to build, strengthen, enlighten, and evolve. No matter how many times we were pinned down and had our hands broken, we have always come back and forgiven; we have always come back and applied ourselves harder to the betterment of humanity.

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

And again, this is our legacy. Our heroes are those who have proven beyond all odds the invincible truths to the universe, and our army is found in every walk of life, pockets of people who know that there is a better world crying out to be built up from the ruins that crumble and have crumbled around us. And our calvary is truth, universal truths, that we can rely on ALWAYS. Morihei Ueshiba knew it, when he turned to the techinques of science and mathematics in the forms of nature to base Aikido from. Albert Einstein knew it when he sought to teach us that the language of the universe is written in a cryptography that is complicated, but is still a cryptography that can be broken with the ingenuity, insight, and intelligence of the human mind. Or that can can be improved significantly by the collection of human minds.

And yes...those puzzle pieces are terribly important. But the key is that no one person has 100% of the puzzle. That's the thing they don't tell you in the instructions. You're born, and at some point, you open the box, to find one or an immeasurable number of puzzle pieces, and the only instruction given is:

"Please complete the puzzle."

The pieces we hold individually might not make sense. And the picture on the box is dingy and faded and blurry, and looks like different things to different people. Only by working together with everyone and saying "These are all the pieces I have in my pocket," whether they make sense to us or not, and asking "Please show me all of the pieces you have collected up to this point in your life," are we to approach solving this thing. Even if you only have one piece that has been useless to you your entire life, and you don't even recognize that it's a piece, it might be the missing key to something that someone else has been working on.

You're walking around scratching your head, holding in your hand some random cog, and cross paths with this other cat, who sees it and shouts "EUREKA! That is the last cog of the machine that I've built from parts I've collected that will move us into the next phase of growth and positive evolution!"

Bam. Equation completed, or at least another step. Step by step, we must do this, and we must not loose faith. Like you told me, you have to look for those stories that validate our hopes, faiths, and the struggles that we undergo daily, yearly, generation by generation.

Marinate on this. It is proven that the shortest distance between two points is a straight line (isn't it?), but the most natural distance between two points is the way of the sprial.

Our way may seem to take a much longer, and sometimes more convoluted route, but our way is one that is backed by the cornerstones of the universe. Know that, and have faith in that truth.