AdverGaming

[avad]

I want to cry.
I knew it was coming. *sigh*
Dreamt this so many years ago...and the feeling of urgency...the questions/challenges...HOW do we use these evolving technologies and the surges of attention/energy for the GOOD of humanity, not just corporate greed?? The same technology has the power to totally change our economic system to symbiotically support areas of great need...developing countries...areas of suffering...The dream indicated that it would have to be emergent WITH the technology...the infrastructure would have to be PREDESIGNED to benefit the charitable organizations...and the launching of it would be immense, collaborative, exciting, heralding a new world possibility...of cooperation. Everyone wanting to be a part of it and to watch it grow.

And now almost 6 years later I've really done nothing (I didn't know HOW- it felt so beyond me!!) and I watch as it all happens...but with the bent we were hoping somehow to avert. the memes propogating here are 'go spend and support our corporate greed' instead of all the beautiful memes that could be reaching the masses.
"There has to be a vision...so compelling...that it thwarts the natural tendency to selfishness...rewiring the pleasure-centers of the brain to connect to benevolent action strongly...a new vision of the self...as part of a benevolent organism...."
And I made artwork with the visions. And I read. And I was inspired..linking, making common interest friends...but...
I never MOVED any of these ideas formally!. And they were shown to me as store and webportal, not painting and dinner chat.The 10% club remains a semisecret vow I've taken personally...instead of a MOVEMENT throught the business sector as it is 'supposed' to be...with cooperating businesses and a web portal to charities. Pier 10 would be a conglomerate of these businesses...in 3d immersive virtual worlds (gaming).
ugh. I feel sick. I don't know how to explain the haunting and heavy feeling of responsibility I feel for something that yes seems totally beyond me. I just want to cry. I don't know how to do this!!!!!!
I don't think I've been able to truly convey to even one person the Magnitude of what I feel relating to this...and I feel horrible and guilty and I dont' want to hear that I shouldn't I want someone to understand that there's something SO important that needs to be DONE!!!!!!!!It feels so late now. Impossible to catch up to the speed of things happening....I just don't know!

fcking sobbing crying my eyes out
sick of not being able to express
sick of myself and my avoidance and my laziness
years years years have gone by
I was made aware of our chance....and did nothing
because it seemed 'too hard, too complicated' to do
and much Much too social, collaborative.
Noooo...darlene wants to be alone and have her peace and quiet...
while everything poises on the shiftpoint
and people around the world suffer
and she's shown a diagram of how to help
a little piece of the puzzle
but it feels to difficult to express
and doesn't make lightning when she tries
so she lets it slide
deprioritized
Deprioritized?
how dare i
*screamsob*

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[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

And again, this is our legacy. Our heroes are those who have proven beyond all odds the invincible truths to the universe, and our army is found in every walk of life, pockets of people who know that there is a better world crying out to be built up from the ruins that crumble and have crumbled around us. And our calvary is truth, universal truths, that we can rely on ALWAYS. Morihei Ueshiba knew it, when he turned to the techinques of science and mathematics in the forms of nature to base Aikido from. Albert Einstein knew it when he sought to teach us that the language of the universe is written in a cryptography that is complicated, but is still a cryptography that can be broken with the ingenuity, insight, and intelligence of the human mind. Or that can can be improved significantly by the collection of human minds.

And yes...those puzzle pieces are terribly important. But the key is that no one person has 100% of the puzzle. That's the thing they don't tell you in the instructions. You're born, and at some point, you open the box, to find one or an immeasurable number of puzzle pieces, and the only instruction given is:

"Please complete the puzzle."

The pieces we hold individually might not make sense. And the picture on the box is dingy and faded and blurry, and looks like different things to different people. Only by working together with everyone and saying "These are all the pieces I have in my pocket," whether they make sense to us or not, and asking "Please show me all of the pieces you have collected up to this point in your life," are we to approach solving this thing. Even if you only have one piece that has been useless to you your entire life, and you don't even recognize that it's a piece, it might be the missing key to something that someone else has been working on.

You're walking around scratching your head, holding in your hand some random cog, and cross paths with this other cat, who sees it and shouts "EUREKA! That is the last cog of the machine that I've built from parts I've collected that will move us into the next phase of growth and positive evolution!"

Bam. Equation completed, or at least another step. Step by step, we must do this, and we must not loose faith. Like you told me, you have to look for those stories that validate our hopes, faiths, and the struggles that we undergo daily, yearly, generation by generation.

Marinate on this. It is proven that the shortest distance between two points is a straight line (isn't it?), but the most natural distance between two points is the way of the sprial.

Our way may seem to take a much longer, and sometimes more convoluted route, but our way is one that is backed by the cornerstones of the universe. Know that, and have faith in that truth.

of course, you knew my response would be verbose, right?

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

...as an afterthought, I wanted to say that you should call me sometime. The support system between and around glowing embers of life and it's champions needs to be strong, because the responsibility that we take on and carry is so immense, it really does threaten to crush us every time we wake up from sleep. And again, for the record, it IS something that should not be carried by one set of hands, or a few, but the many. So call any time, it doesn't matter what hour of the day:

510.798.5040

Ed.

[avad.livejournal.com]

You're walking around scratching your head, holding in your hand some random cog, and cross paths with this other cat, who sees it and shouts "EUREKA! That is the last cog of the machine that I've built from parts I've collected that will move us into the next phase of growth and positive evolution!"

yesyesYES!:)
Only I've got to figure out how to put my cog into a form I can hand over!! It still seems so difficult to express! It's like the artwork plus my brain and heart and dreamvisions. Do you have a smoosher for this purpose? I'd like it to be the size of a small cube and I'd like to make copies of the cog so that many can try it out in their machines!!.;)

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

Truth be told, I'm the fellow working on the machine...and the machine IS a smoosher. A Strange Shapes Including And Especially Cogs Smoosher to be exact.

That's what I need the cog for...

[avad.livejournal.com]

joy. so glad we found eachother.
take it take it!:)

Afterthought:

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

You know. If you lived out here, we'd be going out for slurpies instead of all this nonsense.

SLUURRR...PEEEZ.

Mmmm Hmmm.
You heard me.
That's right.
Slurpies, mane.

Let's go.

Re: Afterthought:

[avad.livejournal.com]

well I don't know where 'out here' IS.
I thought you lived in my computer!
*taptap*
slurpeeeez R COLD!!!
I just had me a hot 'Caramel Mocha Nirvana' no joke.
I mean, how can you resist a name like that with espresso in it? you can join me for one of those and we can chitchatter aways.:)

[seppuku-files.livejournal.com]

Man! I thought you knew where "out here" was, in relation to me! Out here! California's bay area! East bay! A good handful of miles across the water from San Francisco, but no less, a stone's throw away!

Man. I'd join you for a hot beverage, a cold beverage, or no beverage at all, and just conversation. I'm dead serious. If you ever come out this way, you should really hit me up. Though, I'll be honest, I might take a bit more chasing down than the average photographer after a grizzly; I'm sure I fucked off meeting up with another friend from out of town who flew into L.A. (three hundred miles south, but still close enough to consider trying to meet).

Yeah...Carmel, Mocha, and Nirvana, all used in the same name would rope me in, too. I feel you on that. See, in California, we don't REALLY know what cold is about, so it's acceptable for us to talk about Slurpies, even in the dead of winter...

[avad.livejournal.com]

AHA now I remember...that was your lil blip on my friends map!! yep all the way over therrrrre.
in the WARM.
ha to see what cold is like check out my latest post...and then I DARE you to talk to me about slurpees! ok I don't dare you. just don't do it, please.
*shiver*
actually it's way nice inside right now...I've got the sun warming me through the window and a beautiful snowscape to look out at..

Re: Afterthought:

[avad.livejournal.com]

or was it Mocha Caramel Nirvana? anyways it was the Nirvana that got me.
It seemed so....easy.:)