Return of the Ritual

[avad]

I've finally started my ritual of hammering nails again. It had been far too long...
And it feels like returning home.
All the preparations made me happy. I brought two primed wood panels upstairs to work on.
One will be a weave, and one will be Page 7 of The Book of Hope.
I smile just looking at my hammer, and my goggles and the sun from the window.
*deep breaths*
I've started on the weave and I will let it go where it wants to. So far it looks like...well, I'm not sure...I won't hedge it in by saying.
Each nail a prayer, gratitude, a hope a wish...ripples of intention and the tomorrows reassemble subtly.

In other news, We went to drive-by/see a house rental...which the realtor warned us was 'old and Very rough' inside and out. She wouldn't even go with us...said call after you've seen it if you're still interested.
And it was...Truly rough. Like you can't really live there in winter rough. *sigh* But part of me fell in love with it....daydreaming all the what ifs...picturing it all fixed up (which would cost a fortune and take forever I know I know it's a can of worms that we can't get into..). But *sigh* it had such character...and a sunporch...and interesting windows...and then this property behind it..with a delapidated chicken coop and some falling apart barn/shed...
and in my eyes...what a funny cartoon it would make..if you could see what was there with the plastic covered windows and the roof all warped...and could see then what was in my head superimposed...with the japanese roof and japanese gardens and the red trim...you'd laugh. but....*sigh*
And no, I really DON'T want to spend my life fixing up a house....it's just that there's something magical that I felt when we lived in the renovated barn a few years ago...and this place had it too, maybe more so? It's not necessary...but I do hope one day we will find a home that feels that way...that reflects that something I cannot describe.One day.

Comments

[unluckymonkey.livejournal.com]

I can't wait to see more! I'm becoming despondednt with the meanderings my painting is taking.But I suppose that's to be expected with such a long hiatus. I'm starting to ask myself the old questions again: why? what? who will care either way?

On the house note I SO understand what you mean. When I decide to go house hunting (which is usually once a year)I drag the poor dear to see all thes TERRIBLE places that I see as magical. The bad ones have SUCH character, age an beauty. hard to resist. Funny you should see where I live right now. 55degrees, unfinished ceilings in some places but LOTS of space and room to feel free to be yourself. We can also be as loud as we want. I think that's fun. I like to blastmy moo-sick and shake aboot. And I don't even like to think that I have neighbors because here I really don't. hard to beat. But,still I slow down when I see the HUGE old houses in the older parts of town up for sale and dream of old woodwork and big windows and a little garden in the back yard. The reality I ahve difficulty facing is those houses need new roofs and aren't good neighborhoods anymore. And the heating bills! woof!

But we can dream.

[avad.livejournal.com]

I'm with ya hon.
Dreaming away.I'll take pics for ya of the house.

And first and foremost YOU must care about your art. YOU. Find the whys for you. Then if you want to communicate Something to others...what IS that...and how can it be done through your strengths and talents. *big hugs*

[viciated-wilkin.livejournal.com]

I'd be really interested to see what the hammering/nails/weaving looks like. It sounds so soothing.

[avad.livejournal.com]

It is so soothing!....meditative...with prayer. I love it so.
Here's a pic of one from before during the process:


and this is what it ended up looking like:

You can see a lot more on my website (http://www.darlenecharneco.com) under the Readings section or the Beyond Words section... :) I love doing these.

[viciated-wilkin.livejournal.com]

that is just so cool......
i can see how it would be so soothing to do.