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Return of the Sun
We have been granted brief and blissful visitations from the SUN. (finally after weeks of rain!)
Yesterday morning I went for a short run...and then treated myself to an hour at the magic bay. I figured, everyone who was working at a job was daydreaming of being able to be outside and at the beach so if I didn't go it would be downright disrespectful. (how's that for justification?)Returned 'sunkissed'- though I found it very hard to lie on my back long enough..'professional sunbather' I am NOT.I want my eyes open...and do not like the direct heat. I prefer to lie on my stomach so I can look out at the water and sand...or write in my journal or read.
What an amazing day. When B came home, at HIS suggestion (!), we took books and went to the park in town to read at the monument. It was wonderful. Sitting arm against arm...softly breathing...I am so comfortable that I'm sure we must be One. The light becomes wetter...clouds are approaching. The air becomes more electric...I set down my book and stare out at the lawn...the trees...the sky...breathing..and feel myself go deeper...into a meditative realm. I am surprised at this a bit because I am not alone, and I am outside in 'public'. Self-consciousness arises a few times, but I do not cling to it..and it dissolves.I am utterly calm. The lawn itself seemed to flicker, shapes of shadow and light...but a small wave of fear then came up and I resisted going deeper. *sigh* Perhaps another day . Back to the sky...lightning in the distance...I felt I could sit there forever...the peaceful feeling returned easily. I felt myself gathering strength. (!)
It's odd to describe this now...but these are such important parts of my day that it seems wrong not to. This morning I did a meditation on body sensations. I feel more committed to this...and it feels right.
Yesterday morning I went for a short run...and then treated myself to an hour at the magic bay. I figured, everyone who was working at a job was daydreaming of being able to be outside and at the beach so if I didn't go it would be downright disrespectful. (how's that for justification?)Returned 'sunkissed'- though I found it very hard to lie on my back long enough..'professional sunbather' I am NOT.I want my eyes open...and do not like the direct heat. I prefer to lie on my stomach so I can look out at the water and sand...or write in my journal or read.
What an amazing day. When B came home, at HIS suggestion (!), we took books and went to the park in town to read at the monument. It was wonderful. Sitting arm against arm...softly breathing...I am so comfortable that I'm sure we must be One. The light becomes wetter...clouds are approaching. The air becomes more electric...I set down my book and stare out at the lawn...the trees...the sky...breathing..and feel myself go deeper...into a meditative realm. I am surprised at this a bit because I am not alone, and I am outside in 'public'. Self-consciousness arises a few times, but I do not cling to it..and it dissolves.I am utterly calm. The lawn itself seemed to flicker, shapes of shadow and light...but a small wave of fear then came up and I resisted going deeper. *sigh* Perhaps another day . Back to the sky...lightning in the distance...I felt I could sit there forever...the peaceful feeling returned easily. I felt myself gathering strength. (!)
It's odd to describe this now...but these are such important parts of my day that it seems wrong not to. This morning I did a meditation on body sensations. I feel more committed to this...and it feels right.
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You are such a poet, I love reading your LJ :)
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good to hear that others care about their health and body too.